Thursday, December 27, 2007
I Will Lift My Eyes by Bebo NormanGod, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now
Endlessly by Newlife WorshipSaviour of my soul, Lover of my life
I love You endlessly
Passion of my heart, Everything You are
I Love You endlessly
You loved me, before I knew of You
You loved me, now I give it back to You
With Your majesty here, I fall to my knees
I love you endlessly
With the beauty of Your Son, I find myself undone
I love you endlessy
King who paid my price, Death has brought me life
I love You endlessly
Grace on which I stand, With everything I am
I love You endlessly
These 2 songs have showed me what God has done for me. He sent His son to die for me. For us. All of us. These few days I have really been away from God. I didn't have the heart to even read the bible or talk to Him. Prayer meeting last week was an act. The celebration dinner was an act. The christmas service was an act. It was all a show. I wasn't really worshipping God or having fun. I felt so lonely. I felt like no one cared. I felt pathetic. I felt like murdering. I felt so much hate for everyone around me. Then, I switched on my wmp, and it was on shuffle. These 2 songs then came out. I really thank God now, for everything He has done for me. Like what my fairygodma said, 'Be contented with what you have. I mean, compared to so many other people, the life you have is like their dream.' I really took everything forgranted. My friends, family, even my computer. She showed me that I should really thank God for giving me this life. I kept thinking that my life stinked. But now I know that God loves me, and that He's everything to me. Self-pity bounded me, trapped me in a cage, but God freed me and now I'm grateful for what He has done. I thank God for giving me so many great friends. Like Andrew, who's always so generous and kind. Like Thaddeus, who always somehow manages to cheer me up. Like Justin, whom always listens to my troubles and worries. Like Samtan, who's always there for me. Like my cousin, Kayhan, although we're totally different and sometimes quarel, I really thank God for making him my cousin, cuz he has always been there for me. Ever since we were kids. God has also given me other friends, far too many to thank. He has given me 2 great cell leaders, my dad and pearleen. They teach me and guide me in my walk with God. And for my fairygodma, for giving me all the encouragement i needed, for lifting me up whenever i was down, and for being such a blessing in my life.
God has opened my eyes. Now I really see how truely blessed I am compared to others. Blessed with so many friends, and such a wonderful family. I give my everything to Him.
I love Jesus!
i made it known at 1:19 AM
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