Tuesday, June 24, 2008
what's this pain in my head. what's this pain in my heart. what's this pain in my soul.
nigete, nigete, nigete. is that all you can do? josiah your pathetic. your a loser. running wont help anything. you've gotta face it. your a king. damnit. you have so many friends surrounding you to help and care for you damnit. why does your frigging life have to weigh on one person's frigging damnit decision. why are you such a loser. why are you running? fight it damnit. fight it. you can do it. God's here. your friends are here. your family's here. damn you just frigging stop running. dont let this decide your life. let God decide your life. why are you worrying damnit. why are you crying. why are you so stressed up? why let your whole self get crushed by this pathetic battle? why do you frigging run you loser? josiah tan you are such a pathetic ass. crying wont get you anywhere. neither would running. pick up your sword, pick up your shield. put on your armor. it's time for war damnit. it's time for you to fight your worries, time for you to make a path in their guts. slash their heads off. it's time for the king in you to come out. God will pull you through this, your friends will pull you through this. your family will pull you through this so stop worrying damnit. i dont wanna give up on you. idiot. dont give up and fight. k?
omgosh. i cant believe i just talked to myself. whoever's reading this please pray for me. that all the stress would be relieved from my head. that the pain will stop. please pray for me. thanks all.
i made it known at 8:20 PM
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