Monday, July 28, 2008
hmm. look at it.
it looks like a warzone out there.
black grey white.
i guess i've had it?
end of grey, lesser blacks and more whites.
that's what i want. that's what God wants.
then again, i think my gift of leadership is both a gift and a curse. i mean, i dare say it was given to me. i am obliged to it. like, people keep asking me to make decisions and lead them everywhere. i'm okay with it. but sometimes, i want to be left alone sometimes. but yeah, it was given to me so i can lead you guys. then again, i'm not one who can convert, i'm one who can protect and to discipline. i'm not a conquerer, i'm a defender. but please, if your reading this, don't feel like bad. i will lead all of us closer to God, ALL of us. and definitely bring us closer. that's what we have to do now. unite like no one's business. stick tighter than peanut and butter. if anyone who's ever had problems with me, come and tell me. i want to come clean with everyone. i don't want anyone to hate me. i hope no one does. except for one person, whom i shan't ever mention.
eh. really. if anything that really goes and disturbs that animal in me ah, i will really let it out. you wanna wage war come and tell me. i'll crush you in every aspect. really. xD try me, if you even have the courage.
hmm.. heard from someone you wanna come kill me one day. im waiting. we'll see who kills who. hahahahahahaha. xD
nah. i dont hate that person. it's just that that person needs a wake up call lah. relax guys.
to notice gifts and use them to the best of their abilities in a team. that's what i'm trying to learn now. hmm.. guys help me. xD
justice or mercy. i think, we shouldn't stick to one side only. i realized that if you combine them both, you get love. true love. love that will correct, love that will encourage, love that will raise hopes, love that will bring truth and order, not chaos and destruction. then again, i still value justice over mercy. haha. i shall try and attain this unconditional love as my next step in my spiritual life. then the next one is gonna be selflessness. no more,' eh help me do this' attitude anymore. i've had enough of slacking and lazing around. haha. i feel stress creeping into my head already by saying that. but i need it i guess?
get the ENTP ENTJ INTP INTJ together and what do you get? PURE FUN. xD
i'm training the ENFJ to turn to a ENTJ, and the ESTP to a ENTP. trust me, it'll work. i believe it will. i won't force. i will bring it out. hahahaa. call me a mad scientist, but i think we'll function pretty well. trust me. YOU GUYS HAVE TO.
i see 4 thrones.
the king who protects
the queen who loves
the king who conquers
the queen who will discipline
and what would you get? a lovely kingdom. xD
then again, we are all equal.
i dont really want to get into the youth comm leh. i wanna do something like secret ops or something. like a background group of people holding the whole stage together. i find it fun! hahaha. the puppeteers. xD
and so i have came to a conclusion that these 45 past days are the worst ever days of my life, but the best. erm, easily put, the months of June and July have been nothing but total CRAP. really. hahahaha. but yes, the situations have brought me closer to God.
i realized why last week happen. God's shaping me. xD He has been from the start of June.
thank you? hahaa. yep. THANK YOU!
the quest for knowledge shall never start again, but the research on human nature shall continue. xD it's better than gaining knowledge. hahahaha. xD STOP ME. xD
i made it known at 7:07 PM
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