Tuesday, July 22, 2008
what's going on in my head right now... hmm...
i see a cannonball flying around and bouncing off my inner cranium.
IT HURTS LAH.
it's been long since i've looked to the skies.
i am about to speak in a way some might not understand, so bear with me.
what am i thinking about? war. what's wrong with me? my head.
am i really turning into a monster?
the animal in me. caged up since i don't know when. i can feel it's hate. i can feel it's anger. all the crap being thrown at me since i was young. i never let it out. and now, suddenly, it's crashing against the cage walls. my heart hurts. the raven and snake are taking over my whole head and heart. the wolf longs for a fight, a physical one.
the snow leopard. i never realized it was in me. and now it wants to manipulate, kill and destroy. all these times, the only thing that stopped it from coming out was love. love from my friends, love from my families, love from God. but now this love seems to be immobilized by the evil stare of the snow leopard. overkill is what it desires. it wants to destroy anything in it's path. anything. the natural affinity for the dark side has brought this natural affinity of destruction. i just hope i will never become that way.
im sorry again for speaking in this manner. it's and easy way to describe who i am.
then again there's a part of my heart that's been dimmed. that part that controls everything. it's gone.
pray for me.
the clouds aren't saying anything.
i made it known at 6:19 PM
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