Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Oh can September 2nd just like, come now. I want that new Underoath album. Then I can go headbanging all my sadness away. Bleh. I want it now.
I wonder why I'm so worked up with just those few statements. 3 words in my head now. Let it go.
And I often wonder why I feel like running away from everything. Am I really such a coward? Face it, I can't live with reality, I'm always in my own world, always have been, and that will never change. Call me weak but I think this world is too harsh a place for me. Someone wake me up.
You really never stop til you get what you want huh. Sometimes I wonder why You do all these. It gets me angry. But I know, You have plans for me. But it's just irritating. Why so many times? I don't want it to be the shittiest 3 months of my life. Hear me cry, I'm pleading to You that it won't happen one more time. Please.
It's just so hard to be a christian. Yes I love God, but yes, His word is just so hard to accept. Well, in this situation it's more like His will. I just so troubled. Why. Why. Why.
I don't wanna lose one more friend. I've had it with being sad when You take them away. I've had it with running away. I don't wanna spend the rest of my life losing friends.
Fine. If it's for the future then I'll do it. I really don't see why You have to do this, but since You've said it, fine, I'll let it go. Sigh.
I'm counting on You. Afterall, You have big plans for me.
Oh God, give me your peace.
Show me something
Tell me something
Give me something
Yes You give and take away. But please, don't take that friendship away. I'm begging you. Please don't.
Guys please don't ask about it. Please. I've just been pushed off the cliff again.
Father, I'm counting on You.
i made it known at 9:08 PM
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