Friday, August 08, 2008
Think about the day where we were all put together on that island where we could never escape
And how we immediately became good friends in an instant. How we kayaked together for 4 hours and have so much fun at the same time. How we managed to find our way when we were lost in the wilderness. The buffet dinner we cooked, the candle we lit up for our dear friend. The prayers we said before we went to accomplish anything together. The blade of grass, that leap of faith.
I miss it.
And I thought I had found the best bunch of people to hang out with. Then, you guys just all fall away slowly back into your own lives. I don't like it. At all.
I was thinking about how much my life stinked. I realise I'm falling into my own world. I like it but I don't. I seem so far away from everyone. So, away from this world. Maybe I'm gonna change again. It's inevitable I guess, since God wants me to change so much. But I just wanna enjoy life like I used to. Jamming 4 days a week, Pepper Lunch 3 times a week. Going to meet with my friends at 9am in the morning at Plaza Singapura. Playing lan whenever I can with my best friends. I miss it. But I don't want it.
There's a part of me which misses the past. There's another part of me which wants to change. And it's like 50/50 now. I don't like it.
Confusion
Misconceptions
Phobias
Misunderstandings
Hate
It's a beautiful letdown.
i made it known at 10:05 PM
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